I have been stuck. You wouldn't know it by looking at me or talking to me, but I have been temporarily overwhelmed by life. I have been stuck in blogger's block as wll. I haven't been inspired to post anything and felt like I lost total control the last couple of weeks. My van exploded with toys from homevisits, and papers, and left over trash from eating lunches in the car and then it carried over into the house. We had piles of sheets and bedding from Evelyns old crib, piles of her shoes that used to be kept under the crib, papers and mountains of mail , and a spot on my kitchen counter that hadn't seen the light of day in who knows how long being covered in phone chargers, pennies, pens, scrap paper...I was feeling buried and trapped in my own house and it felt like nothing I did made a difference. And as a result, I was shutting myself off from other people too, I had a personal Brain Flu.
I made the decision when Spring Break came that what I wanted to do was reconnect with friends who I felt I had lost touch with and make some subtle but important changes in my little world inside my head. So I was talking to one of the Moms at church who has identical twin girls the same age as Evelyn about a playdate during my Spring Break and I agreed to have them come over the next day (Monday) to play at OUR house. Knowing full well that I didn't want anyone coming near my house in the state it was in. Needlesstosay, I got the kick in the pants I needed! Thank God for company and visitors, the great motivator for cleaning and getting done what needs to be done.
I got to work and completely rearranged the living room and found storage tubs for all the piles of shoes and clutter on the counter. I vacuumed, I washed down the sideboards, I dusted, I sorted out what Evelyn needed in her room and what she had grown out of in terms of baby blankets. Those baby blankets were some of the hardest things to pack away! The house feels like new and I have new-found pride in my home again.
We went to dinner over the weekend with some friends we hadn't seen in over 2 years and had a great time. I had the twins over for a play date yesterday, which was wild but fun. I am going to take Evelyn to the play group she goes to every week with Julie, but this week I get to take her. And on Friday we are going to the Zoo with my friend from childhood who I have recently reconnected with through FaceBook (maybe I'll write a post on how cool Face Book has been -see I'm feeling inspired already).
So I feel I am purging myself of my "brain flu" and finding the fun again. No work for two weeks, time to just be the best Mommy I can be and fun to be around for my hubby.
8 comments:
I like it! I feel like I'm in the midst of chaos right now, and I hate that. And it will be so much worse before it will get better! I'm so glad you got inspired to get a handle on your chaos. I hope you have a great rest of the break!
Way to go!! I've been cleaning up here and have everything in order but our room... yeah, I know, the one room Scott is going to care about when he comes home... so, that's my plan tonight. An early bed for my girlies and a hunt for the missing carpet in our bedroom! :-) .. not quite that bad but almost.
Oh you young mommies! I sort of remember fussing over my house, and piles of laundry, but what is most dear to my heart are the times when we had 'real' tea parties, playing under umbrella houses, and getting on the city bus to ride to the down town library... to name a few. So do what you need to do to keep sane, but, smell the roses and blow out lots of pretend birthday candles!
Can your mom call me each morning and give me a reality check wake up call?! between her and my mom I think my girls would have it made!.. all sunshine lollipops and rainbows for real! :-).. then we could throw in some granny Judy wisdom and are you kidding me?! Now if I could only get those three grandma's to live next door.. that would be SWEET!!! :-)
You inspire me to do the same...bring a little order into my life. Thanks for being YOU!
You are ready for a great break. Bet your house, etc. will pass inspection with the white glove. Have fun at the beach...enjoy the breeze, waves, food, and family...it will make you a new person. Blessings...
Yes, my dear, fun is quite fetching on you. Even if, after the time-off, fun outings, and trying to bake mold off your Birkenstocks, you get to feeling stuck again - I'll still be just as much in love with you! Smooch -A
Hum...this "brain flu" must be going around as I've been in a similar state recently among other distractions. Isn't a good house-cleaning-company-coming purge great sometimes!
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