Maybe it's the cold I have....

I am not usually apt to talk openly about my faith, but it has been heavy on my mind lately. I am usually very uncomfortable in conversations about faith, for me it is a very private prayerful experience. It much easier for me to act on my faith than talk about it. But tonight I think I am running a slight fever and feel quite ready to spill my guts out to all who check in on me here. So bear with me....
I have always felt more comfortable showing the love of God through my own actions and relishing in Gods love and beauty through nature and other Acts I see. I have been thinking about my relationship with my God and why I feel so different from some other Christians who seem so vocal and out there and "in search of" a relationship with God. A relationship with God means total acceptance and love. I feel free to try new things and make mistakes( if must be) with the assurance that I am not going to lose the Love of an All knowing God. I have never felt the desire to establish a "relationship" with God and I have never been able to relate to that desire I see in other Christians because I never felt that I didn't have a relationship with God or rather felt that God was never there. I have always felt that, of course, He's there-He is God.

I have come to recognize something about people other than myself. Maybe the reason I don't relate to those Christians who are crying out for a "relationship" with God is that they haven't recognized it or experienced it through their relationships here, presently on earth. It occurred to me recently that I feel I have grown up feeling Gods love and presence through my family. I have never felt abandoned by God or a stranger to God because I have always been cradled in everything I do by the love and support of my family. Now that I am grown I am able to extend that in my own life and relationships. My relationship with God is directly related to my relationships here in my life. I just have only recently thought of all this in this light (sorry not my most articulate sentence, but like the title of this post says, I do have a bad cold and a fever).

I find new comfort in the things I have known all along. God is in everything, He shows Himself to us through each other; through prayer, through joy, through sorrow and the mercy we are able to give to others is provided to us through Gods working in us. God shows Himself to us through each other, we actively seek God by actively seeking each other. I hope that now having had this fever induced epiphany that I may be more open and accepting of where other Christians are on their journey with our God. So for now, God Bless.